Mood: Tired
Days Left Until Limited Wardrobe Tour Kicks Off:7
Days Until Kimeri's Birthday:26
Song of Choice:Margert Cho going "That stupid Oregami thing you lift up the flap that says'You suck'" and you're screwed for life!
Topic: Rambelings
Entry Number 1 of the Day
Well I'm glad no one took that the wrong way. Cause let me explain something. When I put my personal life up on the blog (which is really the back bone of the blog without that it would be practically non-exsistant) it's because I too have a journal thing like Lum-Mine is called The Limited Wardrobe Tour since it has to do with mostly the anxiety of moving and the things that I know I have to do before I go and stuff you know-but I mean I don't need one day to have my dad go, "oh lookie here" you know and then be like the explosion of teh military base from FFVIII you know. Which is sad because I can put my personal life out on the internet for all to see-any random stalker, rapest, you know can find out about me but that doesn't scare me oh no it's what the parents think. So I mean cause I'll write that stuff and be like afterwards...oh that probably sounds so concieded and bitchy but then I think well I want to remember taht for later so oh well lol. So yeah...but mostly I print it out later and tape it into TLWT. Anywho yeah I'm glad that you guys felt good about all that makes me feel good that you guys are happy for me. Because you know how I am(see 8-1-02 entry better known as the Margrot Cho I'm gonna die alone entry--"You suck you stress me out!") yeah but I'm still on the high of the encounter. You know this euphoric state where I have had so much energy that I have dusted and swept and mopped things I don't do unless I'm like"ew" or you know I'm told to do so or I'm pissed-yes I clean when I'm angry- but I mean just doing it. And I'm much more pleasant or that's what my mom said. And I mean if this human being has such a positive effect on me then why are they locking him out of my life? Oh well I don't pretend to understand their twisted minds. And you'd think I'd feel guilty because I'm not suppose to talk to him and crap but the thing is I don't and that may sound really bad but it's the truth because when I was honest and open with them it all went to hell. I mean I wasn't eating right and I was depressed I cried a lot and antisocial and oh God surcidal even...This was in like November December that it hit the real low points you know and they did not even notice they just knew I was real complasant.So I am just fine being happy for now and dealing with the concequences later because you know when honesty doesn't work then obviously it's time for a different approach.But hey when I get to college they can just take it or leave it you know because by then I will be on my own and they don't have much of a say in what I do.SO HA! Oh that sounds so mature--speaking of Mature Peter needs to put up the Josh and him bickers!
Days Left Until Limited Wardrobe Tour Kicks Off:7
Days Until Kimeri's Birthday:26
Song of Choice:Margert Cho going "That stupid Oregami thing you lift up the flap that says'You suck'" and you're screwed for life!
Topic: Rambelings
Entry Number 1 of the Day
Well I'm glad no one took that the wrong way. Cause let me explain something. When I put my personal life up on the blog (which is really the back bone of the blog without that it would be practically non-exsistant) it's because I too have a journal thing like Lum-Mine is called The Limited Wardrobe Tour since it has to do with mostly the anxiety of moving and the things that I know I have to do before I go and stuff you know-but I mean I don't need one day to have my dad go, "oh lookie here" you know and then be like the explosion of teh military base from FFVIII you know. Which is sad because I can put my personal life out on the internet for all to see-any random stalker, rapest, you know can find out about me but that doesn't scare me oh no it's what the parents think. So I mean cause I'll write that stuff and be like afterwards...oh that probably sounds so concieded and bitchy but then I think well I want to remember taht for later so oh well lol. So yeah...but mostly I print it out later and tape it into TLWT. Anywho yeah I'm glad that you guys felt good about all that makes me feel good that you guys are happy for me. Because you know how I am(see 8-1-02 entry better known as the Margrot Cho I'm gonna die alone entry--"You suck you stress me out!") yeah but I'm still on the high of the encounter. You know this euphoric state where I have had so much energy that I have dusted and swept and mopped things I don't do unless I'm like"ew" or you know I'm told to do so or I'm pissed-yes I clean when I'm angry- but I mean just doing it. And I'm much more pleasant or that's what my mom said. And I mean if this human being has such a positive effect on me then why are they locking him out of my life? Oh well I don't pretend to understand their twisted minds. And you'd think I'd feel guilty because I'm not suppose to talk to him and crap but the thing is I don't and that may sound really bad but it's the truth because when I was honest and open with them it all went to hell. I mean I wasn't eating right and I was depressed I cried a lot and antisocial and oh God surcidal even...This was in like November December that it hit the real low points you know and they did not even notice they just knew I was real complasant.So I am just fine being happy for now and dealing with the concequences later because you know when honesty doesn't work then obviously it's time for a different approach.But hey when I get to college they can just take it or leave it you know because by then I will be on my own and they don't have much of a say in what I do.SO HA! Oh that sounds so mature--speaking of Mature Peter needs to put up the Josh and him bickers!
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